Jumat, 02 Januari 2015
A Letter To God
My Lord are you there?
I mean. Are you still there. Sitting alone in the ars. Neath the sky
keberapa whether you're on. Or is sitting alone warms the foot in hell. Prepare
everything for the final day. Do you know? As a supervisor prepares a feast.
You certainly do not want any wrong or imperfect. But if so God? I mean what
should people once again punished for what he did in the world. I think human
beings are created as torture itself. But once again. I'm just being. Know what
about the problem of deity?
Years I asked what the hell was created. If heaven is clear for fun. But
hell? Is not that is a source of suffering. Are you a masochist God. I mean,
you know, like seeing the suffering of other beings. It is said that there is a
joke from one of the brilliant creations. St. Augustine. He said, "God
created hell to torment those who disobey. But the place was empty. Because God
is so merciful. He did not even have the heart to enter the devil into
it," whether it is true God?
I think we both know that love is always defeat hatred. You're more than
anything in the whole of this Mayapada know the Lord. Hey wait a minute. You
know me, do you God? Who knows how many creations. You do not remember? Or you
have forgotten because of too much you created in the universe. Perhaps you
forgot God. I Arman Dhani. Currently unemployed and had long been worshiped.
Why? You certainly know why.
But never mind. Discuss the reasons why I no longer will be the same
worship not as important as the reason why a person who hit a dead man and the
baby could slip away. God if you were there when Rashid Rajasa crashing die a
baby? Were you there when the angel of death lifted the baby frail spirit? Did
you see his eyes? Do you feel what his mother? Do you know God?
More than that. Do you ever feel lost God?
Do you know what it lost because of the death. You are eternal almighty Al Baqi ever feel lost? What do you feel God when your girlfriend, your boyfriend that you care, Muhammad died. Do you suffer from God? Are you relieved that he finally there on your side. Or do you even sad? Do you know what it grieve God? Do you ever cry? If you do not want to answer is not what the Lord. We got each other's secrets.
You certainly secret. You are the all-knowing is not it? But enough about me God, if you're not busy. Will you teach me how to deal with loss? How can so that people can remain upright and conscious life as it is when he loses. I think I must protest. Here. The feeling that you embed in every human being one of them is love. This kind of feeling often comes with side effects. Do you know God? As jealous. You did not God who did not want two-timed. Do not want no other gods were worshiped. But why did God create this feeling?
Are we humans must learn to be you God? Learn that behind all thy Supreme is something that you can also have feelings. Most Merciful, Most Compassionate, Most Vindictive, Most Gracious, Most Patience. But if you're happy God? Are you happy with all the power and strength are not limited to it. Did you smile today God? Are you satisfied with all what our existence. With all the hatred that we have and all the damage that we made. Are you still in love with our Lord?
God. Do you hate the people and loves other people? Are the people more special than the others? Does the community have the right to hurt other people? God if you hate one of them then you give rights to other people to destroy a house of worship of others. God are you Muslim? Are you Catholic? Hindu God are you? Do you hate the people who you think is not uniform with the way your will? Do you hate our God?
God. If someday I get to heaven, may I be Catholic? If I survived the hell, can I become Buddhists? God. If I go to heaven. May I ask that my friends are not Islam entered in it? Did not you say all requests in heaven will you grant me? If so. May I love those who are not Islamic? If we had to be uniform. Is not this just an easy matter. You only need to say the "Be".
God. Why do you hate the poet?
God. I'm very fond of poetry. Perhaps the word is the most beautiful poems I have ever read in my life. Your word is a poem that never after I digested meaning. But God. Why did you make me hate poet too? With an unexpected way you taught me how to hate poetry. About the gnarly despicable behavior undertaken old poets in women. God is the way you remind me to no longer believe in the purity of the words?
My Lord. I've never been this angry in my life. Okay maybe I'm never angry Thee when you decide to call the deceased brother. But anger is more than anger that I never felt before god. You have not only managed to make me hate the poet. You're able to make me think that the words had fallen at the nadir of the most disgusted. So I hate myself who love poetry. God is not there more important things than opening my eyes to the blind on my love of poetry?
God. I promise I will never again read a poem. Or better. I promise I will never again touch of poetry. But I beg you. Honor those who humiliated because poetry. Honor those who mocked and abused through poetry. Good Lord. Poet unmatched. Is not your nature makes Ar Rafik as noble? Good Lord. Rescue poetry of despicable behavior of the constituent. That's it.
Eli! Eli! Sabachtani long. My Lord. My Lord. Why did you leave me?
My Lord. I sometimes tired to You. Tired of calling your name in my prayers. Tired hope to You in dhikr-dzikirku. My Lord. Are lately you've answered prayer? Are you only hears a few people? Or only one of the course? Is it because he is not your people. Although he suffered and insulted you would not grant her prayer. What if I was a Jewish minority in Saudi Arabia. What you will hear my prayer? God if you favoritism?
More than that. Do you ever feel lost God?
Do you know what it lost because of the death. You are eternal almighty Al Baqi ever feel lost? What do you feel God when your girlfriend, your boyfriend that you care, Muhammad died. Do you suffer from God? Are you relieved that he finally there on your side. Or do you even sad? Do you know what it grieve God? Do you ever cry? If you do not want to answer is not what the Lord. We got each other's secrets.
You certainly secret. You are the all-knowing is not it? But enough about me God, if you're not busy. Will you teach me how to deal with loss? How can so that people can remain upright and conscious life as it is when he loses. I think I must protest. Here. The feeling that you embed in every human being one of them is love. This kind of feeling often comes with side effects. Do you know God? As jealous. You did not God who did not want two-timed. Do not want no other gods were worshiped. But why did God create this feeling?
Are we humans must learn to be you God? Learn that behind all thy Supreme is something that you can also have feelings. Most Merciful, Most Compassionate, Most Vindictive, Most Gracious, Most Patience. But if you're happy God? Are you happy with all the power and strength are not limited to it. Did you smile today God? Are you satisfied with all what our existence. With all the hatred that we have and all the damage that we made. Are you still in love with our Lord?
God. Do you hate the people and loves other people? Are the people more special than the others? Does the community have the right to hurt other people? God if you hate one of them then you give rights to other people to destroy a house of worship of others. God are you Muslim? Are you Catholic? Hindu God are you? Do you hate the people who you think is not uniform with the way your will? Do you hate our God?
God. If someday I get to heaven, may I be Catholic? If I survived the hell, can I become Buddhists? God. If I go to heaven. May I ask that my friends are not Islam entered in it? Did not you say all requests in heaven will you grant me? If so. May I love those who are not Islamic? If we had to be uniform. Is not this just an easy matter. You only need to say the "Be".
God. Why do you hate the poet?
God. I'm very fond of poetry. Perhaps the word is the most beautiful poems I have ever read in my life. Your word is a poem that never after I digested meaning. But God. Why did you make me hate poet too? With an unexpected way you taught me how to hate poetry. About the gnarly despicable behavior undertaken old poets in women. God is the way you remind me to no longer believe in the purity of the words?
My Lord. I've never been this angry in my life. Okay maybe I'm never angry Thee when you decide to call the deceased brother. But anger is more than anger that I never felt before god. You have not only managed to make me hate the poet. You're able to make me think that the words had fallen at the nadir of the most disgusted. So I hate myself who love poetry. God is not there more important things than opening my eyes to the blind on my love of poetry?
God. I promise I will never again read a poem. Or better. I promise I will never again touch of poetry. But I beg you. Honor those who humiliated because poetry. Honor those who mocked and abused through poetry. Good Lord. Poet unmatched. Is not your nature makes Ar Rafik as noble? Good Lord. Rescue poetry of despicable behavior of the constituent. That's it.
Eli! Eli! Sabachtani long. My Lord. My Lord. Why did you leave me?
My Lord. I sometimes tired to You. Tired of calling your name in my prayers. Tired hope to You in dhikr-dzikirku. My Lord. Are lately you've answered prayer? Are you only hears a few people? Or only one of the course? Is it because he is not your people. Although he suffered and insulted you would not grant her prayer. What if I was a Jewish minority in Saudi Arabia. What you will hear my prayer? God if you favoritism?
God. Have you ever felt so helpless. When all that you can not give birth to nothing but disappointment. When all that you did not change anything other than sacrilege. God. Are you there? When some Ahmadis were expelled from their homes? Were you there when one of your people are supposedly the most ascetic machete to cut with a weak body Ahmadi helpless. Then die dying. Is it you enter Hell?
God if you're there too? When the body is weak Bilal Bin Rabbah in torment? When he glorified and become a follower of the beginning. Or do you just pick mebantu people who you think is right and deny the rest? God have you ever felt left out? As already gives a chance, give grace, give thanks and give everything. But you get even kufr favors, shirk behavior and wicked deeds. Are you god grudge?
I know. Being God never easy. Perhaps there You're there with all gray hair and wrinkles on your forehead, already exhausted view of human behavior. Perhaps there you with heavy eye view of human behavior and you could only sigh alone. Perhaps there You're the heavy breathing has been increasingly frail and increasingly pessimistic ghairu umma do you foresee coming still far from being realized. Getting your people forget how to love and hatred are part of the propaganda. Islam increasingly isolated and increasingly fierce your image.
Are you lonely God?
I mean. You know. Alone for centuries past. You're expelled grandfather
fathers' Eve and Adam from paradise. Then you let stand Angels. Condemned the
devil in the universe. If you're not pleased the Lord speak to me. Relax. I
will not talk to anyone. Your secret's safe with me. Or if you embarrassed.
I'll tell you a secret You tell me one of yours. I'd been busy asking and
demanding. But what can I do? I beings. As a creature I can only pray and hope.
Is not lemahku is pemunjaanku form you God?
God. Whether the deceased brother go to Heaven? You certainly know. He is a man who let down fate. Chronic alcohol uprise. Away from you. But at the end of life he so fervently love. Are you willing to accept return of the Lord? Do you want to receive the man who had only to disappoint you? Either Yourself, but I would welcome anyone who wants to love me for what it is. I would love those who come back to me as himself. With all wrong and his own.
God. May I pray for You? Yes. For you. I wish you always healthy. I hope you love our Lord selali. I pray that you're not tired of hope and gives us humans to be better again. God. If You're exhausted. You may rest. Perhaps it is we are a weak again this mortal could only troubling. Do you know? As prayer being said Anwar in his poetry. "My Lord, I knocked on your door, I could not turn away, hot cayaMu sacred candles in dark kerdip stay silent."
God. Whether the deceased brother go to Heaven? You certainly know. He is a man who let down fate. Chronic alcohol uprise. Away from you. But at the end of life he so fervently love. Are you willing to accept return of the Lord? Do you want to receive the man who had only to disappoint you? Either Yourself, but I would welcome anyone who wants to love me for what it is. I would love those who come back to me as himself. With all wrong and his own.
God. May I pray for You? Yes. For you. I wish you always healthy. I hope you love our Lord selali. I pray that you're not tired of hope and gives us humans to be better again. God. If You're exhausted. You may rest. Perhaps it is we are a weak again this mortal could only troubling. Do you know? As prayer being said Anwar in his poetry. "My Lord, I knocked on your door, I could not turn away, hot cayaMu sacred candles in dark kerdip stay silent."
God. Last. Before I close this letter. Will you love those who love me? Will you love them that I love? Will you forgive those who I hate? Will you save those who hurt me? God. Will you keep it that I love the most? Will you accept those who accept me? Will you protect it are protecting? God. I hope you want to keep it that I loved secretly. He did not need to know. Enough You and me alone.
Signed.
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